A day in my life

Its an important day in my life. I have taken stock of my life so far and realise that whatever I once thought of as an achievement was no more than a gesture. I let life happen to me. I now think I should make life happen. Does that make sense? The idea is I must undergo a mental makeover. Rather than be a Telemachus, I have to strive, to seek and to find that arch of experience which leads to other things. Today I have completed 12 years of married existence. It has been mostly a series of struggles and conflicts of various kinds. The best thing was the birth of my daughter. But there have been other things too which have helped me to grow into a more tolerant and calmer person. Marriage is a good thing because it creates a sort of cushion by replacing dreams with responsibilities. When something hurts, you quickly get over it by reminding yourself of the responsibilities that have to be taken care of. You gradually become a more forgiving person. You say thank you God for all the things that have not gone terribly wrong. You don't complain about things that did not go right. You simply tell yourself, its ok - better luck some other time. As I realise these things, I tell myself I owe myself a gift for growing up. So I gifted myself a laptop. And I thought maybe I could help my sense of humour recuperate by expressing my thoughts on the various aspects of my life. So here's to new beginnings.